Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Twenty-Seventh Day

i'm sitting here
eating my sweet tarts
watching that 70's show
and you're sitting there
reading this
thinkin about what you're going to do tomorrow
or what you're going to wear
or what you want to eat right now
and i say to you
that's life

well that's life as of right now
what's there to look forward to?
summer?
might be nice
when i lay down
and sit still
i can hear my heart beat
and feel it so vividly
feels like i'm excited for something
but i don't know what?

i wish i could just take something
a sleeping pill or something
that knocks me out
for two days
wouldn't miss much
but i could imagine waking up
two days later
feeling amazing
these past few nights i've try to sleep
but i only get 5 to 6 hours in
can't be good
some can live off that
others need more

i just finished my paper on gran torino
five damn pages on that beezy
then i did another page on stagecoach
i'm supposed to read chapters 3 and 4
of the great gatsby
i think i relate to nick in that book
quiet and reserved
over-analytical of situations/ people
mildly intelligent :)
well i'm supposed to write a page on that
but that can lick my ass
sorry for the vulgar language
i hate writing
would rather do math
its so easy
just follow the formula
it's all going to be the same

i wish i had something to talk about right now
i completely forgot
life's a trip mann
what stresses us out?
what's the point of feeling stressed?
its a neurological response
that we can't control
but learn to live with
the main issues that stress us out
money
school
work
friends
not necessarily in that order
but damn a day off would be great
just go somewhere with the friends
don't care where
don't care for how long
just drive and do whatever
get away from things
but then money would be an issue with that idea
which would still bring stress along with it

sounds negative right?
i try not to be
always down for anything
oh well
i am me

people have it worse
they have other issues to deal with
people have it a lot worse
so its stupid to complain
complain if you have a fight with your friend
or complain that you have too much homework
or complain that your parents didn't let you do something
people get over things
life goes on
don't bitch about homework
we're lucky to get this chance to do something with our lives
parents look out for you
for your best interest
not to ruin your fun
to keep you safe
live with it
enjoy it
appreciate it
move on


goodnight...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Day 26

been home alll day
don't think i went outside today
pretty sad no?
well my day started at 3 ish
so that's gotta count for something

i just finished watching gran torino
it was a good ass movie
with a message laid out for you
and if u don't see it
no offense but you're stupid
now i have to write a paper on it
between 4 and 12 pages
random right?

have the new tv shows and movies
just gotten more shitty?
or have we grown up
and not think that the same shit is funny anymore
are we over the same lame jokes and techniques?
or is someone gettin hit in the balls still funny?
i dunno
i watch a lot of tv and many movies
and things get old
new comedies aren't as funny
i'm starting to like the movies that are serious
but give subtle jokes
in maybe a sarcastic way
i dunno that's just me

another pointless blog
who reads this thing? haha
i can't wait till like 20 years down the line
if i can still look back and read this
sometimes i wonder what i was thinkin
when i did something 5 years ago
sometimes 5 weeks ago
that's just me
i think about things way too much
ask anyone who really knows me
i can talk about random things for days
topics that matter of course
topics that no one cares to think of

well i'm off to maybe sleep some
class tomorrow then who knows what
stay classy...

Twenty-Fifth Day

captain's log
i am tired
and have a mild headache
wanna know why?

last night
we get to ricks
night started off with just us
sitting around
waiting for rick and matt to get back
with the cups
then beer pong gets set up and some play
while me jordan and justin and weinbeezy do a boot
the boot is ridiculous
not a good idea
and also not a good idea to take a shot before doing it
then i play bp with my mexican partner justin
and then take another boot
and in the meantime
take shots in between time
i was feeling pretty good
but the night went on
and i had to relaese some of the alcohol
and yeaa
don't remember much
cherry took me home
dropped me off in my yard
thanks cherry!!

it was a good night though
haha we had a lotta laughs
loyo's talk about gambit haha
and his rhyme that doesn't work
as today progresses
i'm recapping more and more

woke up today around 2 or 3?
watched some tv
i realized that nothing good is on tv anymore
i watched the new episode of icarly though :)
decided to give the disney channel a chance
because seriously nothing was on
found out wizards of waverly place are actual magical wizards
tell me tell me tell me something i don't know

it is 6 oclock now
and i've done nothing allll day haha
i'm about to watch gran torino
to write a paper about it for my film class
thenn sleep some more wonderful sleep
pointless blog i know
i might think of something later tonight
until then...
stay up



quote of the day:
"damn you. you give him the easy ones!"

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Day 24

quick post
just a recap

yesterday
went to class
came home
marcel called
said he was by my house
how convenient
he came over
chilled for a little
went to joseph's
watched them work out
i don't need to do that
then went to rick's
tested out the potato gun
it worked with our sock
then went to chick fil a
at around 7 7:30?
i stocked some sauces and stacked some trays
and i got a free spicy chicken :)
marcel came after work
he mopped one side
and got a free shake

then it was off to potato land
went to walnut
first time since we graduated
shot off two potatos there
then went to baker
shot off about a dozen there
they go about 100 yards i believe

the night ended
with us going to the suzanne parking lot
and shot off about two dozen more potatos
some loud
some not so loud
then as we were gettin ready to shoot joseph
we hear fire trucks coming around the corner
so we all run to our cars and take off
passing more trucks and ambulances
scary night

today
went to class again
what a surprise
watched more movies in class
then came home
weinberger came over to upload some videos
thennn met up with cherry at harkins
finally saw adventureland
it was pretty good
i dunno what the haters are talkin about
and both of us agree that
kristen stewart is hott :)

now i'm home
waiting for weinberger to get off work
so we can roll to sonic's in fullerton
i need me some food
that is all for now
laterr....


my future girlfriend :)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Twenty-Third Day

yes this is my second post today
blow me

been thinking
happens a lot
when ur tired
with nothing to do

about my past
my life
all the shit's that happened
everything overall
times we've had
shit's changed
all i can say is...
move on

everything's different now
what's the use in thinkin about the past?
it's happened
it's done with
yea they were good times
but why waste time thinking about them?
it's cool to go over old memories
but what happens when we forget?
nothing?
make more memories
do something else worth talking about
don't live in the past
try to make these times fun
don't think they won't happen again

damn these days go by so fast
it doesn't seem like it
but they do
i've realized the people i've met
in high school or middle school
i've now known them for about 5 years now
some longer
it's crazy
doesn't seem like that at all
seems like we've been doing the same thing
for 5 years
and everyone's the same
people don't change
they just learn
they learn from experience
then they try to apply that to the future

i don't know how to describe it
5 or 6 years is so long
and i don't want to say that it feels like
i just met my friends a week ago
but it feels like that sometimes

sorry i've just been thinking
i know i've repeated this
but shit goes by way too fast
months are like weeks
weeks are like days
don't waste it
don't waste time
do something different
you'll never know
when you'll get this chance again

Day 22

well let's see
nothing to write about
makin stuff up as i write

went to school today
guess what i did allll day at school today
watched movies
yup
in english
watched some old western movie
so we can write a 'textual analysis' on it
then in film class
watched fargo
and started stagecoach
was so tired all day today
despite what happened last night
didn't get great sleep
slept durin the movie in english
drooled a little on the desk
had to wipe it up with my book

came home
took a nap
woke up to a text about the greatest show ever
icarly
said they were watchin it
and reminded them of me
hahah
is that bad?
oh well

now i'm playin poker online again
and about to start my paper
the beach was fun yesterday
caught some gnarly waves
on my boogie board that is
then once they started to die down
went up to play some football
matt all time quarterback= not good idea
hahah

then it got freezing cold
so we built a giant fire
apparently with a fortress of wood around it

then the second group shows up later
much laterrr
and they sing some songs
and the beach marshall guy kicks us out
and we get to ricks somehow
don't remember the ride back
haha oh well
good times
i kinda wanna go to the beach again
all day
but go more prepared
with some food

well that's it
i'm out for now
check out one of the funniest skits
on SNL in it's recent years


Sunday, April 19, 2009

Twenty-First Day

hellooo
as the hours of my spring break wind down
i'm on my computer
playing poker
exciting right?

lets take a look back
at the things i did this past week
i made a list
at the beginning of this break
let's see what i accomplished

clean my room- done
wash my car- mom paid for my carwash- done
make a movie- actually made two movies
one is on the tube
one is made but cannot be posted online
for legal reasons
go to magic mountain- everyone has work/ school
- so... not done
see a couple movies- didn't see any :/
start a research paper- sikeee
call about my fucked up laptop- called about an hour ago
called the circuit city place first
told me to call hp
called hp
told me to call samsung
have not yet called samsung
because i had to eat

overall this has been a good week
got to hang out with a lotta people
went to justin's friday
fun night
went to rick's last night
more fun than usual
went to the park
used the stolen jamaican product
felt kinda shady
but it was cool haha
went back to ricks
stood outside
watched the girls (plus joseph) play the most ridiculous game
hahah i was amazed at how they did that
oh yea and rick is the best driver ever
i know its not much
but i was laughing at how he would go over the curbs
and then come off of them
like nothing happened
right behind some car hahah
the night ended with marcel and me
going to jack in the box
gettin some food and eatin it at ricks
then went home to have the best sleep in a while
also haven't laughed like that in a while

now i'm up
and about to start some homework
i just have to write a page
then study for a test tomorrow
no biggie
can't wait till summer
can't wait till life after this
can't wait to see what i become

that is all for now
stay classy...

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Day 20

quick post
i mean quick
not sayin anything
just postin this video
if you read my blog from yesterday
then you'll know what it's about
enjoy

Ninteenth Day

today was a chill day
woke up around 12 ish
got ready around 4?
went to loyo's
picked up cupe
then drove through some shady neighborhoods
cuz jordan wasn't sure how to take the freeway
so we went to active in chino
got a couple shirts, beanie, and socks
then off to the active in chino hills
where they had nothing
so we went to the beach works next door
where i accidentally knocked over an 'on sale' sign
makes a loud noise
then when i tried to pick it up
it fell apart
and made an even louder bang
everyone stared at me
but i didn't care
then went down to vans
where i got a hat and some sunglasses
i'm rollin deep now
you should see me wearing them soon

anyways
we left
and went on a mission
looking for cherry on top
none of us have ever been
and jordan wanted to go
for some reason
so we found it in diamond bar
and when we got there
we went up to the guy at the cashier
and just stood there
looking for a menu or something
then the guy asked
'first time here'
then he told us what to do
not gonna lie
it was pretty bomb

then back to loyo's
played some beer pong on the wii
haha got the high score
i'm so cool

that was my day today
i recorded most of it
so you might see that soon

as for tomorrow
i plan on washing my car
haven't done that in about a couple months
and to be honest
it looks disgusting
that's gonna take me all day
then who knows what's up for the night

and also tomorrow
around 8 o'clock ish
i'm gonna win the lottery
109 million coming my way
then i get to buy this baby

maybe in a dark purple color though
i'm still undecided

but anyways
i'm off to bed
need me some sleep
goodnight...

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Day 18

shit's a trip
life's a trip
everything has changed so much
this is gonna be a quick post

went to disneyland last night
with berger, matt, marcel
cheryl, lauren, and monique
it was pretty cool
first time in over a year
got one leg soaked on splash mountain
went on the teacups for the first time
was pretty intense
finding nemo was pretty good too
(best animated movie ever by the way)
sad part of the day
there was some throw up in the fast pass line
and some girl ran threw it
slipped and fell
looked like on her ankle
started crying and her mom took her away
felt so bad
anyways
cheryl made the group leave early
cuz she's a party pooper
and a meanyyy
so we ended the night with buzz lightyear
pretty fun time

anyway
its 2 am
and i got nothin to do
i was going through my old myspace comments
ever done that?
its a trip
all the people i used to talk to
for some it was like
why did i talk to them?
haha
or how the hell did i meet them?
my lifestyle has changed so much
i kinda grew outta the whole party thing
people are still in it
i'm down every once in a while
sophomore year
was the year when every weekend
i was intoxicated somehow
what a trip
i dunno how i got through it

things have changed
people have changed
everyone's off doin there own thing
some good
some bad
some college
some drugs
whatever it is
hope the best for them

from what i've seen
life is at a standstill right now
if u want to know why
ask me later
too much to write
i've probably talked about this
with a couple friends already
my friends are great man

no quote today
i'm over that
if i think of one while i'm posting one day
i'll use it

as for now
i'm about to pass out
goodnight
and goodluck

Monday, April 13, 2009

Seventeenth Day

couple questions
why can't that 70's show be on all day?
why am i so lazy?
why can't there be more hours in the day?
why is the office so funny?
why is food so expensive?
why does it seem like there's nothing to do in walnut anymore?
why are there no more good movies?
why are people so shady?
why are my dreams so crazy?

last night/this morning
i had a weird ass dream
i'll tell you what i remember
i guess i was a part of the FBI or something
and i was on a mission with chris tucker
and we were stationed at the playboy mansion
and we kept gettin in trouble with hef
cuz we kept shooting people in daylight
for everyone to see
but hef didn't get mad at me
cuz i barely met him
and the rooms had no doors
just curtains
and i was out on a mission for 3 days
so didn't shower/ brush my teeth
so i come back to the mansion
and forget my room number
so the receptionist gives me attitude
then i wake up

trippy i know
now i'm on pokerstars with justin and ivan
i've been playin for a couple days now
not for real money though
i'm too good for that

easter was chill
hung out with family at the park
played softball
ate some bbq food
went home early
didnt do anything
everyone was tired

check list for this spring break
clean my room- done
wash my car
make a movie
maybe go to magic mountain
see a couple movies
maybe start a research paper
call about my fucked up laptop

thats about it for now
i'll hit u with the updates later
stay up


quote of the day:
"i always said. you can't lose
what you don't put in the middle."

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Day 16

i honestly have nothing to talk about
give me a topic
and i'll write a page about it
this is just going to be
an update post
spring break finally started
too bad everyone already had there's
and mt sac doesnt get one haha
but oh well
time to chillax
that's chill and relax together

lets go over the things i remember
i remember playin dodgeball at weinberger's work
team brian
vs
the others
we did pretty well
i think i'm the mvp
but that's my opinion
that night ended with robert
nailing berger in the face
even though berger had a ball to block him
i think he started bleeding?
a dangerous sport i'm telling you

over the weeks
probably been at ricks house
last night
went to danielle's house
pretty sketchy
left soon after we got there
went to allen's
watched rick and berger play bp
then went to the donut tree
and then home

nothing going on tonight i don't think
maybe something will happen
i still want to see adventureland
but no one's down :(

i need a job
but i don't want one
i need to wash my car
but it's gonna rain
i cleaned my room at least
i found out i have carpet on the floor

but oh well
until then
stay classy...



quote of the day:
"i don't want a piece of you.
i want the whole thing."

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Fifteenth Day

ONE ANSWER

so many things running through my head
hurts to even keep my eyes open
papers after papers to do
projects coming up
i feel like its going to hit me
all at once
when that happens
don't be surprised if i've been MIA
for a couple days

ever wonder why there's not just one answer?
an answer for everything
that would make everything better?
that's why i like math
you do all this shit
but there's only one answer
and it's done
life's the complete opposite of that
you do one thing
and the consequences affect you forever
in many ways
one answer
one way
so damn hard to find that

oh well
life's an adventure right?
that's what my book says
bullshit
but yea
gotta think
i'm lucky
people have it worse
some have no rights
no chances
just living under control
i have the opportunity to do whatever i want
with limits
but still
we are all given the opportunity
to do something with ourselves
whether or not we do something about it
is a different story

spring break for me starts tomorrow afternoon
finally gives me some time
to relax
think about shit
settle shit
maybe have some fun

that's all for now
i'm off to watch some tv
and pass on...


quote of the day:
"There was a moment when I used to blame
everything and everyone. I didn't get no
answers 'cause I was asking the wrong questions.
You have to ask the right questions."

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Day 14

hello there
quick post today
we'll start off
by telling you about my morning
my face was looking a little rugged today
so i decided to get a good shave in
but it was early
and i was tired
so i reached for what i thought
was the shaving cream can
but it was actually
my bro's spray on deodorant
true story
it was pretty inconvenient

moving on
went to class
went to ricks
played BASEketball
came home
took a nap
blah blah
blah blah...

i'm supposed to be writing a paper today
but i'm too lazy
i read the story
but i'll write it tomorrow
instead i've decided to tell you
about a dream i had a couple nights ago

i guess i went on vacation?
cuz we were all at some hotel
nice hotel
only the best for me
just kidding
but yea
i guess i was being chased by someone
so i ran in and out of elevators
and up and down stairs
to get to my hotel room
so i get there
and everyone's sittin in there talking
so i go up to them
and as i was about to say something
i see myself running into the room
then everyone started talking to him
as if i wasn't there
so i just watched on
as if i was watching a movie or something
trippy stuff
the rest i don't remember

i've kind of decided i want to do
something with movies
something in the entertainment business
whether behind the scenes
or in front
it would be fun to be a director or
producer or writer or editor
of course i have very little or no skill
at these professions
you've probably seen my short clips
but it's just an idea
an actor would be cool too
to get lost in another person
and be something completely different
would be a cool experience
and doing it for comedic purposes
would be great
cuz seeing people laugh
is always fun
but i doubt you'll be seeing me
on any screens soon
it's just a thought
maybe a phase
that'll pass soon
we'll see

for now
i'm off to sleep
took some medicine to fall asleep
maybe i'll get a good 8 hours in
laterr....



quote of the day:
"Let's face it. I'm no George Clooney."

Thirteenth Day

wow haven't blogged in almost a week?
sorry for letting my fans down
just kidding
i know only a few people read this thing
the whole way through
but its good to be back on this thing
i've been kinda busy with stuff
quick recap
only the important stuff
chillin in ricks garage of course
matt's birthday bash
monsters vs. aliens with christina and joseph
it was a cool movie
had a few laughs
wanted to see it in 3D though :(
next on my list is adventure land
who's down?

this is going to be a quick but important rant
mostly cuz its 1 AM and i have school in a few hours
but i've been thinking a lot
about relationships
about the goods and bads of them
and about my past ones
i'm not really a relationship kind of guy
but does that mean i won't be in a relationship?
no
it just means i don't want to waste my time
pretending i like someone for a short while
and then get over them real quickly.
that seems to be what happens
in high school/ college relationships
i want to be able to like someone so much
that i can't be able to go a day
without thinking about them
and that i can be myself around them
and the same goes for them
relationships are all about give and take
can't be selfish within them
or else it won't work out
it's a lot of work
and if you like someone a lot
it will pay off
by just being with them

i've only had one relationship
that was longer than maybe 4 months
i know that's short
and not to be mean
but it wasn't right
just "romantic love"
and when you're all caught up
in that stuff
you feel like everything is just going great
and that there is nothing wrong
with the person you like so much
because love is blind right?
but once that feeling goes away
you see the person for how they really are
and wonder if that's what you're really into

they say it's better to date more people
to be able to find out what you really look for
in a relationship
i guess that's true in a way
because i'm young
and i'm not sure what i really want
if i want a girl just like me
quiet and reserved
or one that's completely opposite of that
not to be lame
but only time will tell

sorry to talk about this boring topic
but we've been discussing stuff like this
in my sociology class
about how companionate love
is what keeps people together
because that's the kind
where you accept the person
for who they are
and notice their faults and flaws
but accept them
and you like to be with them anyway
that's my opinion on the topic
anyone can share theirs with me
but for now i must sleep the wonderful sleep
goodnighttttt



quote of the day:
"I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry."

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Day 12

hello
i'd like to take this time out
to tell you about myself
stuff i think about
my personal opinions
if you don't care
not surprising
first off i think life is a joke
anonymity is a bitch
when you live in areas with a lot of people
no one knows who you are
cant keep track of everyone
its impossible
so it gives you the opportunity to do whatever you want
without caring about how it affects anyone else
and it gives you the chance to be whatever you want
because no one knows the real you
people are fake
try to act like the perfect dumbasses we see on tv
nothing's perfect
so we have shit telling us how to be perfect
how to look a certain way
how to act a certain way
how to be completely mindless and follow everyone else
we've been trying so hard to try and fit the norm
that we forget about how to think for ourselves
then we judge people if they want to be different
we try to create this image for ourselves
so we can be liked and looked up to by everyone else
whats the point of being fake
but enough of that

i go to college
put up with all these bullshit papers
to 'further my education'
still don't know what i want to do
but fuck it
there's a lot of shit out there
something's gotta be for me
everyone seems to be in their own little world
avoiding others cuz they think they're better or what?
then once they get out of class they light up a cig
i'll smoke occasionally
but not frequently
i do it because it relaxes me
not to fit in, or be rebellious
but because for a brief moment you feel stress free
some might say
'brian, cigarettes are bad for you. they kill you.'
that might be true
but what about the burgers you inhale daily
consisting of thousands of calories that kill you slowly
or the pollution we got in the industrialized city
also a silent killer
can barely breathe sometimes outside
besides i dont want to live past maybe 75 years old
whats the point?
you're doing everything you can just to stay alive
when it's natural just to move on

i'll drink every so often too
not every weekend
but when i just want to drink
also relieves tension
helps you relax and forget about shit
i dont like to get shit faced drunk
i think i can control myself
and not act like a complete dumbass when i'm drunk
i dunno that just might be me

i'm a shy person
i won't approach someone to try and be friends with them
i don't think i'm any better than them
i'm just too quiet to say anything
or if i do try to talk to someone
they'll just stare at you and judge you
i asked a damn question about homework
give me a simple answer
people misinterpret my quietness for being stuck up
or being a dick
i like to call these people idiots
just because i dont say much doesnt mean i'm an asshole
my friends know i'm nicer than most
get to know me before you talk shit
i can be a dick but only if you start something
i'm more patient than most
i care less about making myself happy
and more of doing shit for my friends
my friends know i'll always be there for them
making people laugh is always great
i'll do shit to get a smile outta anyone
i might make a stupid joke sometimes too
might be inappropriate too
but what funny joke is ever appropriate?

i had more to talk about
but i forgot some stuff
doesnt matter right?
most of you lost interest within the first line right?
why does everyone's attention span seem less than ten seconds
if something doesn't excite them within those ten seconds
they lose interest and want to move on to another subject
then they get lost once again
some blame it on tv right?
but i probably watch more tv than any person
not that its something to brag about
but i can still carry on a conversation
without spacing out or losing interest
ever listen to what other people are talking about?
i know its being nosy but who cares
the fact is that people talk about stupid shit
when's the last time you had a meaningful conversation
people are too busy talking about the latest gossip
who the hell cares
if it doesn't affect you
why does it matter?

that's about all i have to say for now
that's me in a nutshell
if you have opinions too
i'd like to hear
thank you for your time
but its time for me to study and pass out
peaceee....



quote of the day:
"There's room at the top I'm telling you still,
but first you must learn how to smile as you kill."